March 15, 2018
Slow and Steady...Slow and Steady....I need to keep reminding myself.
My tendency is to identify what I want, plan it to the end result, take action, then sit back and evaluate and make adjustments. It is easy for me to have laser-sharp-focus when needed, which is quite the asset.
If I am truthful with myself...I want results quickly! Ahhh....this is one of my life lessons I keep bumping into!
My life is different now as an artist. I am settling onto an unknown path and sampling the opportunities and options. There are many of both. As with all goals, the possibilities sometime frustrate me as I want ALL the good stuff and find it difficult to narrow them into my priorities. And here is where it is getting easier for me....I don't have to do it all right away! My Tendency no longer is necessary! I can choose a different way of being... and I like this realization!
For someone who professes to be so focused and driven...I am going to confess that I've tried some 'non-driven' activities lately: like laying on the sofa, mid day, allowing the sunshine from the window to cover my body....while I do nothing for long periods of time! Why did I do that? I don't know...it wasn't premeditated but I can tell you it was amazing and a small shift in the way I now think about my time and action is different. I'm taking more time to notice things and do things that please me...wasting time stuff...which makes it even more delicious! I was painting the other day and it was cold and rainy. Typical Oregon Spring. Suddenly the sun came out bright while it was still raining and I stopped to look at all the raindrops on the trees glistening in the sunshine like crystals and diamonds. Shockingly pretty and unexpected.
So I'm OK now with waiting for several of my goals to successfully complete. Slow and Steady. In the meantime, I'll enjoy taking actions towards them and slow down enough to acknowledge all the cool things that happen around me in my life that I was too laser-focused to see before.
This is gonna be fun!
I am an observer of life and love to paint what I see with watercolors.