I'm living...I'm learning...I'm growing as an artist as I engage in new techniques and discovery. Discovery in my art and in myself. Recently I have experienced several bad paintings with a technique I kept trying over and over. Each creation had some qualities I appreciated. Those paintings that were not really that good (I don't like referring to them as failed attempts) led my vision and thinking to different areas and ideas....and there I went again....another attempt! You are by now thinking the ending to this story is that I finally created the most perfect beauty! Alas, this is not so. The final outcome was less than stellar... so I moved on.
On a recent walk... the Oregon sun was high in the sky creating these dynamic and interesting shadows! My goal in this art piece was to portray the posts as secondary players to the shadows on the steps and pot. I poured a triad of primary colors in multiple layers to achieve this. The process was creative, challenging, but fun and easy.
I remembered the difficulties with my recent last project. Had the multiple attempts en'couraged' me to proceed...with deliberate action and confidence?.....because I felt fearless and went to that place where magic happens in me and on my paper.
I believe no time in creation is wasted. It affects me in deep ways.
My messes one day obviously open me to my Flow on other days. I will neither challenge or inquire into how this plays out.
Making art is all play. Messy, emotional, beautiful and moody. There are many facets of who I am...my paintings express me, captured in moments of my life. Some are amazing, disappointing, disorganized, and subdued into acceptance. If I am honest with myself, I will follow that need of what to create. Fortunately, the call is always there.